Gryffindorin' the fuck up.

There's been this massive YouTube discussion circulating lately about being scared. Started off by the black and white video made by charlieisoscoollike entitled (guess what) 'I'm Scared' the video acted as the catalyst for other people to create the same.

So it turns out there's lots of people scared.

...And I guess I wanted to join in too.

I'm scared for lots of reasons. I'm scared of self inadequacy, I'm scared of the uncertain future, I'm scared of what other people's perception are of me (the lame and the usual).

But I'm mostly, and this is what I'm in a dilemma over, scared of my opinions and whether they are rational or not.

There's been countless times, over the internet and in person, people have said really shitty things and I've bared witness to it and its upset me. There are three things you can do in this situation. A) mull over said upset and hate everything the person-who-said-questionably-moral-statement represents. Or B) ignore the statement! after all you don't think that way, you know it's wrong, you can carry on with your life and all WILL be fine. And C) you could discuss it with the person, point out what you didn't like about it, and try get them to see your point of view.

Right now I'm in high school - a place where (naturally) opinions differ. A lot of people haven't been exposed to life experience, a lot of people have. Lots of people think differently, lots of people think the same. It's a big pot of different minds really.

 But high school isn't really good at is discussing these opinions. 

I love discussing things. I think it's important to talk about every inch of life with different points raised, with agreements and disagreements, so we can try make sense of the different shit that happens in the world. This is where the previously mentioned dilemma comes in. I debated with people over twitter some points which I thought were important to make, and a person asked me why I was arguing with them, as if it was a personal attack. Which, in their perception, they can think is rational - they see two separate people saying two different statements and naturally presume, argument!!!!! 

I also received what I'm pretty sure were some weird looks today after my twitter outburst. 

I can only speculate, (I'm pretty sure) that people dislike me for my opinion sharing. Even if I try say it rationally, people are going to think it's weird. I've heard  statements like LIGHTEN UP! and CALM DOWN! and IT'S ONLY A JOKE!!! so many times these douchey sayings play in my head like a weird reverse mantra. Should I stop saying my opinions? 

Let me weigh up. Stop saying things about the things that matter to me, so I don't upset the people that don't matter to me, or, try make a difference any way I can, even if it's simply through a tweet or a ''Hey man! what you said wasn't very cool...''

I'm scared I could end up with no friends and a very hated reputation. I'm scared I could never meet people who have the same thinking as me, even though I know they exist. I'm scared I'll just be sad and alone. 

But I'm more scared about the issues I care about and the outside world.

So I guess I'm just going to Gryffindor the fuck up and not care what others think. *hair swish*  .